Been so bogged down with Maths lately.

Summer school is tearing me apart.

My social life has been especially affected by the crazy workload.

I've even developed quite a temper in the last few weeks.

Can't wait for all this to be over.

So want my life back.

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Yes, this is my current MSN display picture. It's handmade and homemade by my one and only younger sister. She's such a gifted 15 year old. And to think that she didn't even need a mouse to draw this picture on Photoshop. She used the touchpad on her almost crappy laptop. I don't think it took her long to come up with a picture like this.. which is why I seriously think her talents will go waste if she doesn't get into art school.. or even animation school in the future.. whichever floats her boat.

Image: Shana

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Sometimes, you make me feel so inexplicably and deliriously happy.

But it's on only days like these..
that you make me feel so downright unhappy.

And it seems to be happening increasingly so lately.

Ah well, what can I say?

I'm faltering again..

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1. You get fatter

You tend to have many meals together.
If you're not doing anything too exciting or interesting with each other, you're probably eating together.
For the guys, you get fatter because you have to finish whatever your girlfriend can't.
For girls, you get fatter just because!

2. You get poorer

Money is very important in a relationship. I'm kidding you not.
You need money. Lots of it.
To pay for bills at fancy restaurants, since you eat out more.
To pay for movie tickets, since you watch more blockbusters at peak periods.
To pay for all the many many material things that you may buy your significant other in attempt to prove your love and commitment; or just as present for that special occasion; or just to make each other smile.

3. You get boring

Dead boring. Both of you.
But despite that, you still love each other.

x0x

Image: GettyImages

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Image: Gettyimages

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It's strange, isn't it? Knowing that a year has gone by just like that. Knowing that now, you're right smack at the starting point of yet another year. You wonder about how time just went by like that, in a blink of an eye. And you wonder if this year will go by just as quickly as the year before. You think about how you're going to be a year older and maybe even a year wiser!

I did a bit of reflection today and some reading as well:


And it just hit me that perhaps, it's really not that hard to be a happy person, is it? That I've really been looking for happiness in the wrong places. That really, all it takes is to make one choice; a lifestyle choice. There are 2 ways you can live. So what will it be?

And it also hit me that perhaps, it was probably because I tried so hard to be happy, that I ended up even more miserable than ever. Because happiness should be come naturally to a person. I have been so unhappy with so many things and with so many people. I was angry and bitter so often, always frowning and frequently crying over spilt milk.

And I wonder if I've really strayed so far to the point that it has made me into a totally different person from before. And I wonder if it's too late to turn back now and try to walk that straight path again.. and maybe even find some meaning and purpose in life again.

Because the darkness can be so scary sometimes and yet so comforting at the same time because no one will be able to see how mangled you've become.

Yet, you know that you can't live in the darkness forever.
So when the light calls out to you.. you run to it.

Anyway, I hope that this year will be a lot better than the last - a happier and healthier year, full of love and laughter! (:

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